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I'm tired. Today was a long day. I had to have my car in the shop to have the brakes repaired but I knew I would need to do it while I was at work. I had no choice but to go to the dealer and have them shuttle me to work. That alone was a pain. And costly. Hasn't anyone ever told you not to have the dealer work on a vehicle unless it's warranty service?

I took back everything I got at Fashion Bug yesterday. I couldn't afford all that stuff for one, and because most of it I ended up not liking once I got home and could try it in REAL light in a REAL mirror. I traded them for some other things, and got a bunch of my money back.

I did well on Weight Watchers today - I used all my points but I didn't go over. I cheated though, and weighed this morning just out of curiosity and I had already dropped a pound. Yay. The stuff I traded at Fashion Bug I got some cute things that are too small, so they will look better when I lose 5-20 lbs. My goal is to be down 15 lbs by the end of January. I don't want to drop it fast, I've done that before and ended up regretting it.

Other things of note, I've got an appointment with an attorney on Monday for my divorce. I'm also doing better with smoking, though I haven't quit yet. I don't go out for smoke breaks when I'm at work anymore, it stays busy enough and thankfully when I'm on the computer I don't have that urge for nicotine. It's after when my brain is more dormant that I have a problem. So I think the trick will be to keep my brain active and concentrating on other things.

I guess I should start taking some pictures so I can do a before and after thing. I know I'm pretty, I'm just fat and depressed. But I'm working on that. Having the opportunity to go clothes shopping and purchase a 14/16 blouse rather than a 22/24 blouse is a positive experience. I hope to be able to purchase one cute thing every time I drop significant weight where I can't get away with wearing the larger clothes anymore.

OK I've got movies to watch and review. Hasta lasagna, don't get any on ya.

The First REAL DAY of Weight Watchers....

I really didn't do that badly. I'm actually quite happy about it. I picked the FLEX plan, the one with the points. I feel it gives me a system I can understand, and it gives me the chance to retrain my thinking about what I eat. I love the WWOnline program, and entering everything I eat. It makes a daily food journal EASY as PIE. Speaking of pie, I had lots and lots of food today, didn't go hungry, and still had 9.5 points left at the end of the day.

I love the fact that broccoli and green salad is free, and my favorite dressing is free, and I can have what I want. Though I don't like a lot of dressing, it's nice to be able to have ranch dressing on a salad without visually seeing the pounds heading toward my mouth.

I know this is going to work. I enjoyed today, I had fun with my food (without playing with it) and I feel anxious to start tomorrow. A few more days of this and maybe I'll even hit the gym! The ex is paying for a couple's membership, but we live 160 miles apart. To cancel our membership, it's a $400 buyout. So he hasn't done it yet. May as well use it, huh?

Today was the first day back to work after the holiday. Boy could I tell. It had Monday written all over it, and we were very busy.

On the way home from work, I decided to stop off at Fashion Bug (it's cheaper than Torrid and actually on my way) to see if I could get some pants. I'm losing weight, I've lost a pant size even with the holidays... so I don't want anything expensive or loose fitting. They have to look good even when tight, because they will have to travel with me as I lose several pant sizes. I hate shopping alone, I can't ever figure out what looks good on me. I can guess, but that's all it is - a guess. I hate taking the kids with me when I shop, they are monsters. So consequently I bought 7 pairs of pants and a pair of shoes to bring home and get a 2nd opinion. To make a long story short, all but the shoes and one pair of pants are going back. I swear I had 20 pair off the rack - and I think my maybe's and no's got confused because I brought pants home I didn't want, and was missing the pants I DID want. So I'm going back tomorrow to take the other 6 pair back and get a pair of brown pants that I tried on today and somehow just didn't buy.